Shut Up and Listen, thanks – The Universe

Sometimes you just have to shut up and listen to the Universe. It’s trying to help you – honestly!

Earlier this month a lovely lady in my SummerSlimDown group posted about a recent loss, “My medicine, and my coping mechanism in the face of tragedy has been to take care of my body. It’s the only thing that feels tangible that I can actually DO and feel of use. Sometimes when life sends you horrible truths the only way you can process is by putting your best essence into this life.”ย  This floored me. Tragedy of all flavors has always shut me down. I stop. I give up. I quit. I abstain.

I didn’t realize I had a choice to not to this.

The above concept has been knocking around in my head. I’ve been “trying on” the idea that I can use my grief, my anger, my frustration to reach my own goals rather than hit a hard stop. It’s completely foreign to me! What a novel concept! That I can continue onward and still be honoring those that have passed. That I can move forward and past the wrongs. That I can succeed and learn from failures.

Then this morning, this pops up on my Facebook feed:

let goFirstly – that picture is freaking adorable!!!ย  And I had the idea to write down everything I DO control. And then I decided to it “later”. And then I decided I’m going to write this up and do it… now. Like really now. Seriously! Ok, ok, I’m going to do it!

My mad time management skillz?

ย …ain’t so mad!ย  Turns out that Fridays is the “due date” for one of my classes rather than Sunday as I had thought. So instead of being ‘ahead’, I’m merely ‘caught up’. Ugh!

So I spend a good chunk of my Sunday getting work events, holidays, and assignments entered into my planner, then working up a schedule.

  • Up at 8:30am
  • Yoga 30min
  • Breakfast, watch/listen to news, check emails/Facebook 30min
  • Read, study, assignments 9:30am-12pm
  • Lunch 30min
  • Great ready for work 12:30pm
  • Work 2pm-10:30pm – taking laptop so I can study during dinner break
  • Gym after work 30-45min
  • Bed by 12am

And yeah, if you look at the time stamp, you’ll notice that I’m an hour behind –I forgot to actually turn on my alarm last night! but woke up at my usual time ๐Ÿ™‚

I slept so well last night!

It was actually a treat to wake up refreshed and comfortable. I think it was the combo of heated mattress pad and oscillating fan.

And then I got out of bed…

  • Discovered that UCF did not defer my enrollment to Spring as I had thought.
  • Had to apply for enrollment all over again.
  • Luckily I had money for the fee, and they have all the supporting documents.
  • Worried I won’t get the class I need.
  • Realized during the application process that I have not renewed my tags yet.
  • Sadly I do not have the money for that until Friday.
  • Luckily I’m working mornings on Black Friday so I can get tags renewed after work.
  • If the tag office is open… if not then it will be next week.
  • I’m sitting oddly twisted and causing my hip to ache.
  • I need to get off my ass and get dressed for work.

Arrggh!

Super FriSatDay!

My Friday was so pleasant I could have happily gone back to work today LOL I was just so refreshed, energized, and happy ๐Ÿ™‚

So what got me there?

  • I got my shots! I have been unable to find my childhood immunization records so I haven’t been able to register for classes. I had to pay out of pocket, plus I needed to be over the sinus plague, so this has been something that has unfortunately been delayed many times. The nurses at the Health Department told me to move my arms to help the shots disperse. I asked about going to the gym later in the day and was told that was an excellent idea. Whew! I did end up taking some Tylenol before bed as I felt a smidge sore and feverish.
  • Yoga book! I wanted a book that wouldย  give me good photos and information on poses (where I’m supposed to be pressing/pushing/opening, what muscles to activate, etc) plus flow sequences. I think this one may do the trick, The Women’s Health Big Book of Yoga. I actually bought the paperback book so I could have it on the floor by my mat.
  • 2.5 hours at the gym! My trainer got delayed so instead of coming home I got in some cardio (treadmill and bike), then worked 2 circuits on the machines. To make up for his being late, he gave me more than hour so I actually racked up 2 and 1/2 hours at the gym – WOOF!
  • Lamb chops for dinner!ย  not something I would eat every week but damn, they are yummy! I marinate them in olive oil, salt, pepper, rosemary and a little tarragon. Throw them in a cast iron skillet to get a good crust then gobble them down!

And today?

  • Lower BMI!!!ย  Checked my BMI using the Wii and while still Obese, I am at a significantly lower number. I was 43.45 and now 40.51! YES!!!
  • New workout pants – Comfy and don’t look too shabby ๐Ÿ˜›
  • The Diet Cure book – I read about this on a /r/xxfitness thread, and thought I’d give it a read. Hopefully it will provide some relief for my horrible sugar addiction. I’ve had some good result cutting wheat and limiting my dairy, I know if I could get rid of the excess sugar I’ll feel even better. I downloaded the Nook version.
  • Back in the gym tonight – Eager to see what I can do tonight.
  • Will start working out before work – my trainer is being absolutely awesome and flexible with my work schedule. We’re going to try meeting up about 2 hours before I go to work. I’ll pack a bag and shower/change at the gym.
  • Getting a game plan for the week worked out – with the above new workout schedule I will have to be organized. Plus I want to get my meals cooked & organized. I ate out far too much last week.

Mid-Noveber- WTF?!?!?!

Holy cow but it’s mid-November already?!?!?!? I don’t know if I should be delighted that time is flying by or panicking cause time is flying by LOL

A quick catchup on the State of this FlBombshell…

  • 2 straight months of facilitating classes at work
  • Got sick the 2nd week and just now feeling back to normal
  • Lost 10lbs in October
  • Lost some more inches
  • Workouts were sporadic due to 10-12 hour work days
  • Diet has been iffy due to the same. Struggling to get back on track.. just in time for the damn holidays and all the food that goes with it.
  • Frustrated at work but taking steps to resolve this
  • PMS is getting ridiculous – migraines and massive mood swings

Goals of this month:

  • Get my supplements and vitamins organized so I am taking them daily
  • Organize my makeup better
  • Get back on track for daily exercise
  • Eat clean and healthy 80% of the time
  • Eat more fruit
  • Continue to purge my hoard of random & useless stuff
  • Patch the wall in craftroom
  • Create a nice patio area around the fire pit in back yard

Keeping my gym bag in the car

Just in case. Day 2 of my evening class and my feet/legs were killing me. No way I could have done anything at the gym. I’m doing 30-45mins of yoga at home before work, but really wanted some strength training & cardio after work. Facilitating this class is just too physically draining. However, I am keeping my packed gym bag packed & in the car. If I adjust, and feel up to it, then I’ll be ready ๐Ÿ™‚

Saying Thank You

Friday was extremely stressful and busy, but ultimately successful. However, it wasn’t until I was telling someone about it that I realized just how lucky and/or blessed I was by the events.

I am extremely grateful for Dunkin Donuts messing up my order and giving me the large pumpkin spice when I only order a small black. And especially grateful for the bank teller that helped me out. She thought outside the box and worked to find a solution.

Some days I’m so far up in my own issues that I can’t see anything but the problems. Glad I was able to step back enough to see and recognize the positive.

Happy Lammas – Bless Yourself!

Happy Lammas! Can you believe it’s August already??? Oy!

First – it may be Lammas but I am not eating any wheat today! Sorry, I just can’t put my gut through all that mess. Today I am “Blessing Be” myself!

  • I am reorienting my mindset from thinking that exercise and healthy nutritious food isย  punishment.
  • Chocolate and sweets are not good for my body.
  • The pain and discomfort after eating them is not worth it.
  • I feel so good, emotionally & physically, after exercising.
  • It’s ok for me to feel good.
  • I don’t have to hurt so much.
  • I will be working towards my future goals and getting my health under control will help.
  • I will survive this coming “peak season” without gaining weight.

What are you doing to Bless Yourself?

Karmic Bukkake

Ok, everyone knows what ‘bukkake‘ is right? Don’t lie! and if you have to look it up, for gawds’ sake, don’t do it at work! ::snicker::

Well, I’m experiencing some ‘karmic bukkake’ right now and I thought I’d share the love! A couple of weeks ago I had a really lovely weekend with both new friends and my dearest friends. I experienced a few FUCKING INCREDIBLE connections and shared energy experiences that just blew my mind. No, seriously! I feel like I have had my attitude/outlook rebooted or reprogrammed. I’m seeing everything and everyone is a completely different light. Shortly after my personal cosmic event, I heard from two very interesting individuals. This just added to my disgustingly delightful mood ๐Ÿ˜›

Adding to the overwhelming goodness it a couple of things on the burner career-wise. I’m just overflowing with this amazing energy and trying to channel it toward more good things. I suspect my summer is going to be very busy and massively productive ๐Ÿ™‚

This week’s Game Plan

I’m doing exactly what I feared would happen – falling into a dark hole of depression and sloth. However, I have had moments of productivity so I’m making a schedule of sorts to keep myself on track:

  1. Out of bed by 8am
  2. Yoga – Cardio – Lifting: Wii Yoga & Cardio and Beautiful Badass program. Maybe throw in some dance dvds as well.
  3. Job Search: EmployFlorida, CareerBuilder, etc
  4. Three hours of cleaning/purging: I’ve got a bunch of clothing for friends set aside, plus I’ve thrown out quite a bit of unusable stuff. Work will focus on two rooms to start. Three hours will be enough to make a small dent but not overwhelm me.
  5. Two hours of creative pursuits: Draw, color, goof around with a collage, fiddle with some beads. Just doing something to get my muse engaged.
  6. One hour focused on blog: either finishing up the dozen posts I’ve not published, writing new ones, or learning/researching aspects of social media.