Sometimes you just have to shut up and listen to the Universe. It’s trying to help you – honestly!
Earlier this month a lovely lady in my SummerSlimDown group posted about a recent loss, “My medicine, and my coping mechanism in the face of tragedy has been to take care of my body. It’s the only thing that feels tangible that I can actually DO and feel of use. Sometimes when life sends you horrible truths the only way you can process is by putting your best essence into this life.” This floored me. Tragedy of all flavors has always shut me down. I stop. I give up. I quit. I abstain.
I didn’t realize I had a choice to not to this.
The above concept has been knocking around in my head. I’ve been “trying on” the idea that I can use my grief, my anger, my frustration to reach my own goals rather than hit a hard stop. It’s completely foreign to me! What a novel concept! That I can continue onward and still be honoring those that have passed. That I can move forward and past the wrongs. That I can succeed and learn from failures.
Then this morning, this pops up on my Facebook feed:
Firstly – that picture is freaking adorable!!! And I had the idea to write down everything I DO control. And then I decided to it “later”. And then I decided I’m going to write this up and do it… now. Like really now. Seriously! Ok, ok, I’m going to do it!
15 minutes of yoga to stretch out, focused on hips, thighs & upper back
10 minutes of brisk walk at 2.0 incline to warm up
45 minutes of circuit strength training
17 minutes of C25K, W2D1. Stopped cause my fussy right ankle sprained mid-stride and was too tender to put weight on
I haven’t worked out as much as I like so was feeling a tad wimpy. However, I did have a few interesting moments of realization:
I have finally learned how to focus and isolate – actually use the right muscle. For example, with a bench press I’m not pushing the bar with my hands, I’m using chest and shoulders to press the weight. It’s making a big difference in my strength and form.
I’m learning the difference between “tired” and “hmm, that doesn’t feel right“.
I’m not always immediately hungry after working out. I think it’s a knee-jerk reaction, my psychological coping mechanism kicking in.”Oh you worked hard – let’s eat something!” I stopped for a tuna unwich but didn’t want it once I started eating it. I put it away and ate about an hour later when I really was hungry.
I’m not to upset on not completing W2D1. I was jogging pretty darn well but hips/knees were odd. It was most likely from doing leg work right before cardio. I’ll repeat W2D1 on Tuesday and own it 🙂
So I started grad school this past Monday. And I’m terrified! Not only am I’m still working 40+ hours but it has been years since I’ve claimed the label “student”. I had to pass a “Academic Integrity” quiz before I can submit any assignments – how cool is that?!?! Big change from the old “cheating is bad, m’kay?” message LOL Luckily I’m off Friday & Saturday so I can:
Not only get caught up on reading & quizzes but get ahead
Sunday I packed some good choices for my work lunch & snacks, and I avoided both soda and snack machines – WOOT!
On the way home I decided against a fast food hamburger for a delicious meal at home of a sweet potato topped with diced ham and mango salsa followed by a bowl of fresh berries – WOOT!
… and then I fell into a bag of Tostitos and a jar of queso cheese dip. Not so woot LOL
Today I’m packing up some lean ground beef and cooked mixed greens, plus some instant oatmeal, apples & peanut butter. I’ve got beef jerky and nuts in my desk for snacks.
Downloading “The Diet Cure” to my new tablet so I can re-read. The charts were impossible to read on my Nook. For some reason they laid out the tables vertical so whenever you rotated your Nook, the table would rotate LOL it was frustrating to have to change my settings when I was reading it.
Hopefully the mandatory extra time is done at work so I can get back into the gym.
My Friday was so pleasant I could have happily gone back to work today LOL I was just so refreshed, energized, and happy 🙂
So what got me there?
I got my shots! I have been unable to find my childhood immunization records so I haven’t been able to register for classes. I had to pay out of pocket, plus I needed to be over the sinus plague, so this has been something that has unfortunately been delayed many times. The nurses at the Health Department told me to move my arms to help the shots disperse. I asked about going to the gym later in the day and was told that was an excellent idea. Whew! I did end up taking some Tylenol before bed as I felt a smidge sore and feverish.
Yoga book! I wanted a book that would give me good photos and information on poses (where I’m supposed to be pressing/pushing/opening, what muscles to activate, etc) plus flow sequences. I think this one may do the trick, The Women’s Health Big Book of Yoga. I actually bought the paperback book so I could have it on the floor by my mat.
2.5 hours at the gym! My trainer got delayed so instead of coming home I got in some cardio (treadmill and bike), then worked 2 circuits on the machines. To make up for his being late, he gave me more than hour so I actually racked up 2 and 1/2 hours at the gym – WOOF!
Lamb chops for dinner! not something I would eat every week but damn, they are yummy! I marinate them in olive oil, salt, pepper, rosemary and a little tarragon. Throw them in a cast iron skillet to get a good crust then gobble them down!
Lower BMI!!! Checked my BMI using the Wii and while still Obese, I am at a significantly lower number. I was 43.45 and now 40.51! YES!!!
New workout pants – Comfy and don’t look too shabby 😛
The Diet Cure book – I read about this on a /r/xxfitness thread, and thought I’d give it a read. Hopefully it will provide some relief for my horrible sugar addiction. I’ve had some good result cutting wheat and limiting my dairy, I know if I could get rid of the excess sugar I’ll feel even better. I downloaded the Nook version.
Back in the gym tonight – Eager to see what I can do tonight.
Will start working out before work – my trainer is being absolutely awesome and flexible with my work schedule. We’re going to try meeting up about 2 hours before I go to work. I’ll pack a bag and shower/change at the gym.
Getting a game plan for the week worked out – with the above new workout schedule I will have to be organized. Plus I want to get my meals cooked & organized. I ate out far too much last week.